I'm starting to feel really jaded because I'm tired of taking care of other people before me. I'm too nice, too generous, too giving, too over the top with whatever I do for other people that I realize that I'm truly cutting myself short because in the end, I give people what they want but I don't get what I want. All that is about to change. I'm no longer helping other people. I'm helping myself. I'm no longer doing favors for people. I don't want to get entangled with the emotions of other people. I rather keep my distance and mind my own business. I feel that when I stop paying attention to what is outside of me, the more I can focus on my own personal growth, development, and take care of me so I balance some areas of my personal life better. I am withdrawing from certain people to take care of myself for my own future. The sad truth is that I'm not really close with any of the people that I have crossed as I thought. I had been so delusional to think that some people are my close friends when we never really hang out at all. So why am I even helping acquaintances with their rent and copping myself out of a large sum of money last month? It's time I give back to myself and spoil myself this year. Last year, I have done enough for others.
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AuthorA Nichijou Blog is a blog that entails the everyday or day-to-day mundane and random life and moments of Kaneda Yoshida, otherwise known as Yoshi, he shares his career goals, work life, education, general skills, family life, close-friends, love life, social life, involvement with the LGBTQIA+ community, human rights activism, unique hobbies, general interests such as his love for cooking and wine, to sharing some of his favorite categories at random, opening up deep secrets about him as a person, sharing past-life moments, batting anxiety and depression, and his life as a bisexual transgender man. Archives
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